let's move on!

2011-01-13T20:23:00.002+08:00

wow! finally i can get through my account. tell me what? it's been months right, i know. i've lost interest in blogging until i found onsugar. unfortunately, i have to let blogger go now. so, goodbye blogger. hello:

radinshazwani.onsugar.com

see you all there!

L-O-V-E

2010-10-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

LOVE

learn to appreciate it

twice!

2010-09-18T13:05:00.002+08:00

another devil playing dirty trick on me. mission: i'm so gonna track this girl down. waaaaah, pantang org tgh holiday, ada sahaja yang nak ganggu.

supermansupercute

2010-09-17T18:14:00.005+08:00

CHILA'S MY SUPERMAAAAAAAN!

okay anyway, hari raya pictures are up for viewing. please go to my multiply!

HOLIDAAAAAAAY!

2010-08-21T12:39:00.005+08:00

three whole months of attachment is officially over yesterday and i have the rest of the days until 18th of October(from what i heard when my year 3 semester 2 starts), all to myself! and i've passed my attachment and the remark i had was, "quick learner. works well with the rest of the colleagues" which i think i should be getting worst than that cause all i do was stoning, chatting, sms-ing, calling and even facebook-ing on my blackberry.

my last few hours at work, i really thanked my supervisor for being nice, i thanked my both partners for the guidance throughout. and all of them really gave me good advice. somehow i feel sad to leave them but well, life gotta move on!

above all else, i really thanked dear Allah for the continuous guidance he gave.

anyway, i've been forced to catch step up 3D with haz and ayu last thursday after breaking fast together at food culture. i told them i've not enough cash, i've got curfew, i gotta work the next morning, but all of those reasons doesn't satisfy them. but it's worth watching! i like to see people dance. i like to see hot guys. and i like to see how that good man struggle and do everything at best for someone whom he appreciate. i just love watching someone who sacrifice for the one he love.

which as for last night, since it's officially my last day of attachment, by means it's my eve of holidays, i went out to meet my polymates after work at geylang. i know i'm late but who cares, it's fun that matters.

i can't believe i just make it through my FYP and attachment. i can't believe how time really flies. i can't believe i'm already half way through my third year in school. i can't believe i've grown up this fast. i can't believe i've make some good deeds. and i even can't believe i've made some crimes.

and for both days above, i really had much fun.

now, now. my holidays are precious. i wanna be more happy and have more fun. =D

padaMu ku bersujud

2010-08-14T17:11:00.003+08:00

Kau tempatku meminta

Kau beriku bahagia

jadikan aku selamanya

hambaMu yang selalu bertaqwa

ampuniku ya Allah

yang sering melupakanMu

saat Kau limpahkan karuniaMu

dalam sunyi aku bersujud

padaMu..

two days self declare hols

2010-08-13T17:44:00.002+08:00

correction for my previous post cause i'm on two days mc. =D

so now my time is very precious at home, i request for no disturbance at the time being. till later!

mimi! and the gang

2010-08-12T09:37:00.011+08:00

first and foremost, thank you superhuman for the volcom pair!

okay. the reason why i can blog at this hour is because i took a day off from work today. seriously, i think i've been so much loyal to my company that i've only been absenting myself for only a day throughout this ten weeks of attachment. bravo me! now i'm already at the eleventh week. superhuman asked when's my last day of attachment so i told him it's on the twentieth of august which then he said 'it's finishing soon, time flies right?' and then i've been reminded of how much i've complained to him about the people and the working environment and how slow it's going to be till the last week of attachment, when i'm on my very first week.

alright, that's a tough start of the post. enough of it cause i'm happy that i'm only left with only six working days with the company! bravo me! to have made it this far. pfffft! i sound as though i've achieved something so grateful in my whole life.

anyway, it's the second of ramadhan already. how people? looking forward for syawal? long holidays? geeeeeees, i can't wait.

i know i've promised you people for proper update so let's start off with mimi! and the gang. okay wait, mimi never had a gang until recently, sister bought and brought in three new Persian kittens. very handsome and pretty and cute, i tell you! mimi and the persians haven't gang up yet though. what i meant was, they're still new to each other. how can they possibly be friends without knowing each other yet, right? so i believe, the best way for them to get to know each other is by staring, showing their super sharp teeth, challenge who meowed the loudest, compare who has got the longest and sharpest claw, then ran into each other and fight! i really believe that's the best way cause that's what they just did.

i just pray best that both mimi and chila won't kill each other.

okay, pardon me for 'mimi! and the gang' bad introduction. the 'they' i've been ranting about above are mimi and chila. they both are about the same age. mimi is a girl if you forget. and chila is a boy. the other two are just new born kittens. can't afford to even walk properly, and always sleeping. and currently we haven't had a name for these new borns yet. so total there are 4 kittens at my home!

i think i shouldn't rant more about how jealous mimi were when we first brought the other kittens (the gang) home. for if i start, i won't stop.

but posting a picture of mimi sulking won't kill right? so please, look below.

she's sucha pity, isn't she?

and that was chila. i wanted to name him jacob(twilight). he looked like one. and below is the newborns. black and white. okay, no. the black and white is not their name.

happy ending.

haha, no. haven't end yet. there's still more to come. and i've uploaded pictures of family dinner at sakura international buffet which it was sister and her fiancé treat. and last night out to YOG opening ceremony preview. my childhood friend is in so he offered us four express tix for the grand stand seats. click below for pictures!

SAKURA INTERNATIONAL BUFFET!

YOG OPENING CEREMONY PREVIEW!

okay, i'll be out to the doctor for medical certificate!

busywoman.

2010-08-10T23:31:00.004+08:00

as you all know my schedule is very tight and i'm sure you're all getting tired about coming here to see no new updates, that's why i really thought of stop blogging but it's too precious to give some stories a miss, right?

i promise i will post pictures and tell more stories - about how angry, upset and jealous mimi was when she got three new friends coming in with us, about how my family spent our lovely dinner at sakura international buffet, about how i spend my everydays - the next time i blog.

samsung

2010-08-01T10:55:00.003+08:00

thousands apologies delly, i've to leave you home. behave well okay?

say hello to my new netbook. =D samsung, please behave well too cause i'm bringing you out.

cutie kitty

2010-06-28T21:16:00.007+08:00

it's monday blues earlier at work. and it's only the fifth slow week. i reallyreallyreally don't wanna countdown to the end of attachment cause i know it's still a long way to go but from some sources i know, i still got 39 more days to work with the company. dear Allah, please help me shorten that 39 days!

anyway, tonight i got the sudden urge to blog. i don't know why but it's about mimi. mimi has been living with our family for three weeks already. my sister and her finance adopted her to be part of our family since it's only three months old. i don't really accept her at first but as day goes by, slowly i'm accepting the fact.

i tried my best adapting the situation with mimi around and brace myself for whatever unpredictable stuff that's gonna happen. afterall, mimi is waaay younger and smaller than me so i got no points to be afraid of her presence.

my sister has been busy working so she's not always at home. so now the burden of taking good care of mimi is all on me. i feed her. i play with her. i make her sleep. i do almost everything with her during my free time at home except for changing it's 'diapers' and bathe her. from here, you all should know how close i am with mimi.

we're not only close but mimi likes being pampered by me. and she's brilliant too. she'd always stick out her head out of nowhere and ran to me whenever i call out her name. she's cute right? she's cute in every angle, i swear. don't believe me? i have the pictures to show you below.

so this is mimi when she first came to my home. she'd always sit like that on the shoe box behind the doors. that's where she always hide herself.

this is mimi when she starts to adapt with my home. this is also when she gets to know each of her new family members.

this is again mimi when she's used to our home. she never hide herself behind the doors on the shoe box anymore. so now that's her new relaxing place; on the sofa.

this is mimi when she's already pampered by me. wherever i go, whatever i do, she'd always hang around with me. the picture below is when i'm clearing my books from my cupboard. she saw that i pay too much attention to my books. she was jealous. therefore she went up to my books, sat there and give me that pathetic look. adorable much right?

now this is mimi when she still doesn't get much attention from me even when i'm done clearing all my books. she'd conquer a big part of my cupboard so i can't arrange my books in it. very naughty. but cute. heeeee!

below is my prove. many wouldn't believe i have a kitten at my home cause i'm 'afraid' of them but naaaah, not anymore. picture below clearly shows i'm not afraid of them.

and this is mimi when i try to get myself some sleep. she'd crawl herself up and lay next to me. heeeeeeeee!

this is mimi when she sulk with me just because i was busy doing something else and not playing with her. just look at the way she sleep!

and this! is the father cat. hahahahahahahaha!

i tell every of mimi's move to this father cat. i even ask him to adopt a boy kitten for me so that mimi got a friend to play with and she can even make 'kids' with the boy kitten. heeeeeee!

imma stand up like a soldier!

2010-06-19T19:43:00.004+08:00

i just spent my two lonely hours by scrubbing off the dirts that has been sticking to my baby-g that muhammad firdaus gave me for our third months together, last year. there's no more upcoming month together with him any longer though. how i really miss those days.

actually i never thought of doing it but i came across the song he once dedicated to me - which made my heart melt and brought us together, so - that's when i started reminiscing those days with him and the baby-g came across my mind and yes, i scrubbed the dirt off. i tried so hard but the colour is still off-white.

any solutions to make it back to it's original colour which is super pure white? i asked ayah about it and he said, "use autosol". isn't autosol used to make metal shine instead of making an off-white colour to be pure white?

anyway, yes i'm back. did i mentioned anything about my attachment here? so here goes. i've been attached to a company called Techsystems Services and Integration Asia Pte Ltd. the name is so long and people around keep asking which company i am from. i swear i stuttered everytime to answer that question.

so it's been three weeks i've been working there. so far, it was nice. i haven't make any havoc scenes in there yet. and as usual, i'm the only malay girl. come on, imma engineer. what should i expect right?

and i really don't want to countdown to the end of attachment but just for my little info, i have nine more weeks to go! cycling slowly, i know. -_____________-

really, i have a lot of stories to share and as usual, i don't know how to start. or should i just stop? ok, this is stupid.

monday, half day work then mc. tuesday, met haz at pasir ris. wednesday, caught nightmare on elm streets with the blackies. thursday, friday, saturday, stay home. how i wish i can stay home all the way. i don't want attachment cause i hate attachment cause i got no friend! i've been ranting and keep on ranting about this to imran and all he say is, "be patient, it's gonna end soon!"

well, i really hope so.

lovely weekends.

2010-06-14T16:28:00.003+08:00

ban mian with nana, ummai and hidayah was preety last friday. shopping, pastamania-ing, arcade-ing with imran was awesome last saturday. and as for yesterday, attended nabilah sister's wedding with black gangs together with nana, ummai and ADI was sweet. overall, i enjoyed my weekends!

today, i'm on MC. i hate attachment!

and i think it's best if i make this post the last, forever. should i?

birthdays celebration with family

2010-05-17T21:04:00.005+08:00

another surprise birthday celebration made by my family last sunday was awesomely lovely! we had it at Chicken Champ by Nuradee Bros and they sang irwan, myself, together with zul a birthday song. isn't that lovely?

i love you, my family.

CLICK HERE FOR MORE PICTURES!

the heroes and heroines.

2010-05-16T08:57:00.004+08:00

i really had a great time reminiscing and partying with each and everyone of them in the picture above. thank you BGs for the great night with the great foods and the great birthday cake. special thanks to fariz sungguh perangai for the motor ride. next stop, cycling at pulau ubin?

GO TO MULTIPLY FOR MORE PICTURES!

unconditional love

2010-05-11T20:22:00.003+08:00

i got this SMS from mama at 2318 yesterday then tears roll down my cheek.

"ony sblm mlm ni berlalu Ma terimbas kembali kenangan 20tahun yg lalu...10may 1990 ma ada masalah semasa ingin melahirkan bayi yg teroverdue didlm kandungan. doctor masukkan pil kedlm faraj mudah2an ia akan buka bsr utk melahirkan secara normal tapi itu tak berlaku akhirnya ma dibedah juga utk menyelamatkan bayi ma. selepas 1jam dibedah barulah dpt tgk baby yg cute... diberi nama syazwani... oleh ma. gembira sungguh walaupun dlm kesakitan.. cpt betul masa berlalu dier membesar dgn akhlak yg baik dan semakin cantik YA ALLAH kw peliharalah anakku.. jadikan dier anak yg soleha tercapai segala cita2 yg dihajati berkatkan umur dan rezkinya diberi kesihatan, terang akal fikirannye bila menghadapi peperiksaan amin.. maafkan ma dan ayah tidak dpt raikan insyaallah satu hari nnt k.. hapi bdae anakku sayang.. dari ma dan ayah.."

a love between a parent and their children is unconditional. same goes to my love for my lovely parents.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RADIN SHAZWANI!

2010-05-10T21:07:00.004+08:00

yesterday was mother's day so we siblings bought our Mama a handbag from Guess.

and today's my day!

i am twenty and it's amazing how time flies. here i'd like to wish every single one of you who've wished me through calls(imran & eric), SMS(nabilah, ummai, azlyn, syaf, atiqah, rabiatul, uncle rezan, fyQah, huzai, chong hao, arfan, idayu, edy, ismail & taufiq) and even on facebook a special thank you. pardon me for not replying some of your SMSes cause you know, my sms is limited and i scare i might overshot my bills. heeeee! and to those who gave me birthday cards and gifts, a thousand thank you-s to you too.

another special thank you to my poly mates(nabilah, ummai, nana, din, hidayah and fathiah) who've celebrated my day in school. =D

i wholly love my family.

2010-05-05T20:51:00.004+08:00

fetched parents off from airport yesterday and we're siblings were greeted by mama hugging and kissing and keep telling us how much she misses us. and ayah too with his botak head. i can't help but to roll another tears to see my parents safely back home with us after 2 weeks.

i've been keeping stories and problems of my daily life to myself. now that they're back home, i can wholely share it with them like i've done all these 19 years of living. this is much of a relief.

and kakak has gotten me an advance gift. thank you kaaaak!

that's what happened this weekend

2010-04-25T21:16:00.005+08:00

i'd like to wish my greatest condolences to razman's family for losing their very own man of the house; the father. now razman's replacing his late dad and i'm sure he's strong to play his role as a dad and as a year 3 student as well.

lastly, very much misses to both of my parents. i'll pray the best for them.

much misses.

2010-04-20T22:09:00.004+08:00

tomorrow is the 21st. i scare i might not do well in my duty at home. i scare i might not handle my misses for my parents. i'm scared and am not prepared. my parents never leave we siblings all by ourselves but tomorrow, they will. they'll be going to the most beautiful place on earth to perform umrah. but i'll try my best to keep everything in hand while they were away, i promise. let's everyone pray for my parents safest journey throughout.

and it's my brother birthday tomorrow as well. happy 16th birthday radin khairul irwan!

HAPPY DAYSS!

2010-04-11T17:13:00.011+08:00

click on the titles above the print screened pages for direct link to those pictures. enjoyyy!

WEDDING CEREMONY AT KOTA TINGGI.

SENTOSA WITH POLYMATES

SIMPANG BEDOK WITH SECONDARY MATES

pls skip this weekend!

2010-03-30T14:15:00.003+08:00

i've gotten my pay! now let's wait for superhuman's free time to go out shopping with me! but not this coming weekends though. next weekend, perhaps?

MY WEEKENDS ARE SWEET!

2010-03-29T09:14:00.001+08:00

DO YOU REMEMBER THE NIGHTS WE DROVE AROUND CRAZY IN LOVE?

imma happy girl

2010-03-23T08:38:00.003+08:00

it's my year 2 semester 2 result today. and i've passed all my modules! Dear Allah, thank you again for helping me through. i love you!

and to dearest Nabilah, happy 20th birthday!

then and now.

2010-03-22T18:23:00.005+08:00

alright now let's play compare.

look at us few years back then..............

.........................and now. =)

huge difference, aren't we? we've all grown so big already.

AWESOME-ST DAY!

2010-03-22T16:47:00.008+08:00

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for more pictures, as usual, my multiply!

from those pictures above you can conclude that i've spent my weekends blissfully, aren't you? well yes indeed.

i was out with the Hamms for arnold and marina barrage. it was an awesome day cause i've not seen them all for quite sometime already. and rabi'atul wants another outing for karaoke session. atiqah? idayu? on? haha.

for the second five pictures, you can tell yourselves. it's Sentosa! initial plan was to just walk around vivo and chill out, but the idea of visiting Resorts World came to Mami Jarum's mind so, why not right? i lovelove that outing manymany.

and as for the last ten pictures, it was again the splendid day ever. visited ismail's cousin wedding and celebrated Taufiq's belated and Nabilah's advance birthday as well. and we end our day to bowl at Kallang Leisure Park. awesome, right?

and what's make my day more awesome?

superhuman was there! heehee!

now i'm on MC even though i'm not sick. it's not just one day MC but TWO! that doctor is too kind. i think he can read my mind about me not liking FYP so much. boooo!

lastly, i'll be dead soon. results will be out tomorrow and i've no confidence in every of the examinations i took. =x

didn't i fight for this love?

2010-03-17T17:15:00.002+08:00

i am taking the last hour from my time in school to at least update something to my blog. it's been more then a week yeah? i promise i'll try and do proper update when i have the time.

first and foremost, i am tendering a resignation to that workplace. it's very horrible working in there for the last day. secondly, i am bored with school. but it's not as horrible as i have been at work.

and lastly, i wanna try karaoke-ing at K Suites please! anyone?

something to learn; don't break promises.

2010-03-08T20:44:00.005+08:00

those sweet sacrifices were made without me realizing. and it left me screwing, hurting, discriminating the innocent party. i don't know why i get all pissed just when i think of that day. now, even though i know promises don't work well with me, that innocent party and myself launched our promises for the very first time yesterday.

thank you for those hours superhuman! i appreciate it much.

so today marks the start of my FYP. and i'm gonna go through this for twelve whole weeks. dear Allah, thank you so much for letting me work with someone i know for two years. and if i could ask you for one more thing, i plead you to help me through.

it's all about missing.

2010-03-07T12:04:00.002+08:00

even though i really had fun going out with my polytechnic mates, my secondary mates and my primary mates within these four days of holidays of mine, i still feel the absence of something or someone. a very good day everyone.

people ho-liday. i no-liday. not faaair!

2010-03-03T21:03:00.005+08:00

so today marks the end of my second year semester two. i don't know what's coming for my third year but i hope, i'll be fine. anyway, i swear, all of the three examinations i took is a killer. i really don't know if i can make it this time.

darker side of the note; FYP next.

no holidays. no happy days. all of my plans were ruined. thanks to you, NYP.

brighter side of the note; i treat mama to pastamania earlier today! we shopped a lot at marks and spencer too. shopping with mama alone is verrrrrrry fun!

lost.

2010-02-24T21:47:00.002+08:00

to feel the lost of someone we love so much is something so heartbreaking and so unbearable. whats more the feeling of losing someone forever even without saying goodbye? this is very miserable.

i've ever felt like that many times before. and now i'm feeling it again for my dear friend, nana, who's grandma just went to meet dear Allah this morning. to hear her crying over the phone makes my heart sank, cause nana has always been a strong girl. and i hope, she'll be as strong as she has been to overcome this situation plus, the examinations we're all going through this two weeks.

my greatest condolences to nana and family.

vdaaaay.

2010-02-20T11:37:00.004+08:00

had an awesome time with these two girls again yesterday. this time we had it all at downtown. we had kentucky fried chicken. we took tons of photos. we catched valentine's day. and it was all nice. =)

i know i've been into fried chicken these days. everytime i went out, i see and want to eat fried chicken. even i am dreaming myself eating fried chicken. are all these chickens trying to haunt me?

anyway, i've got my ang pao from work and i've spent it all up. i've not even get my hair and eyelashes done, but the money were all used up. really, i cannot get hold on cash. i'd tend to use it. gaaaaahh!

i think i need myself a personal banker who could help me get control of my money before it's all used up.

we're on our own

2010-02-13T22:05:00.007+08:00

since i have sometime to use my laptop now, i shall update. i had my common test last thursday and it was nice. cause it's the only module i can understand so well. and i'll be working my ass off for 7 days straight starting from last thursday until next wednesday. it's chinese new year tomorrow so i gotta work extra hours for 3 days. then i'll be getting my ang pao at the end of the 3rd day! yeaaayyy!

i'm soooo going to do my eyelashes and my hair!

and you know what, i am very grateful to have mama. cause she'd paused her busy work at home just to rescue me at my workplace to buy me a food just when i told her i was reallyreally hungry.

anyway, nabilah! i know the feeling of not having someone we're close to in school is different when they're not around. but let's try our best for next semester. if you think you cannot do it without either ummai or me, i'm worst. cause i've always depend on you and everyone one else all these years. what's not? everytime when i finish school early, or i came to school early, or we have breaks at the same time, or i'm in need of kotex, or everything, you'd rescue me. next semester, i'm on my own already and i'm sure it's gonna be tough. so let's be strong and yeah, screeeew NYP!

screw NYP!

2010-02-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

i was down the moment i get to know that i'm the only one among my poly mates were to do my FYP first instead of study path. then they told me Faizal too. well, at least i know someone to ask around on the 8th of march later.

and there's no holidays for me when i've already plan what to do, what to have, who to meet for my upcoming holidays. gaaaaaahh!

i am totally nervous. if Faizal were to be the same specialization course as me, i'd feel better. but he's not. dear Allah, please let the time go slow until the day i can accept the fact that i still gotta do my FYP first.

darker side of the note, i'll be having a common test this week, 3 exams the 2 weeks after. all of this blends well to my fear.

i love my WEEKEND!

2010-02-08T00:18:00.005+08:00

I LOVE MY WEEKEND!

you know why?

cause it's been more than a month since i last met superhuman. we both really had a hard time to spare for each other since he's busy with his NS, while i'm busy with school and work.

so we both play a part to put some time aside for each other. and the best part is, he's been sacrificing himself just to make me feel happy.

anyway, believe it or not, we met for two days straight. saturday and sunday. and for that both days, we're out with my hyundai getz along. he fulfilled my wish to drive him around someday, and getting myself pampered with fried chicken from arnolds on saturday.

which as for sunday, our plan was to eat at jalan kayu but the parking attendant was on duty and i have no parking coupon at that moment. therefore we head off to rasa21 instead.

so after everything, we parked my hyundai getz at my home carpark, then we took bus to my workplace. and by then he accompanied me at work all the way until nine plus. which make himself reached his camp laaaate!

yeaaaaaaaaaayy!

2010-02-04T13:41:00.004+08:00

teacher: show me the demo.

me: *clickclickclick*, there!

teacher: ok good.

after showing him my mini project, i secured my grade D already.

teacher: so now the first question. what does void do to the application?

me: CHERRR! WHY GIVE ME DIFFICULT ONE?!!!

teacher: *giggles* i no power to read your mind. if i have, i'd give you simpler question.

me: ahh nevermind, give me sometime to think.

he walked away so i googled for void.

me: cher, void does not return a value......?

teacher: yes. waaahh! clever ah!

me: yeaaay!

i secured grade C.

teacher: next question. *go through my coding and highlight one sentence* what does this do?

me: oh! this one! k. it enables the user to type in their........things.

teacher: waaah. good ah. ok last question.

grade B is in my hands now. ^.^

teacher: *go through my coding again and highlight one part* why this one equalequal?

me: CHEEEEERRRRRR!

teacher: whatttt. i randomly pick one. i don't know that you don't know what.

me: *show him my sympathetic face*

teacher: ok ok i give you 3 options. it's used for 'if' or 'text' or 'value'. which one?

me: ahh, cannot be 'if' right cher?

teacher: i don't know. i give you 3 choices already.

me: ah k, it's used for 'if'.

teacher: sure ah?

me: yess!

teacher: waaah power. you can read people mind one eh!

me: of course. your facial expression is very obvious la cher.

teacher: *big laughs*

and from there, i got an A for it. thank you for your guidance dear Allah. =)

boooooo me.

2010-02-04T01:18:00.003+08:00

please give me guidance for tomorrow. i gotta hand in my mini project which i know nothing about it even though i have the file secured in my hands now. and from that sentence, obviously you know i did not do it by myself. yes, i got that file from anterine. so tell me, how the hell am i gonna answer the 3 questions he's gonna ask tomorrow? help me!

HAPPY 20TH SYAF!

2010-02-02T21:31:00.004+08:00

i don't know why i keep replaying cheryl cole's video just to see her dance and.....she's just so preety. of course i know no one can beat nora danish - in my opinion - but there's something cheryl cole has that catches my eyes. okay let me stress that i am straight before anyone says otherwise.

so anyway, i can say that i'm done with almost all of my modules. i'll be coming back to school for short hours of lectures these week and for the week after, it'll be my common test and exam period. time flies eh?

we had a mini celebration for Syaf's 20th birthday earlier. i really hope she likes it. and to my poly mates, sorry for keep dragging the dinner date. i'll make it up to all of you, promise.

-____________-

2010-01-27T23:02:00.004+08:00

not only these project report and presentation is driving me nuts, superhuman too. please screw me! crying have always been the best way to console myself. i admit i am weak these days. ok bye.

----

2010-01-25T08:57:00.002+08:00

we gotta

fight, fight, fight, fight, fight

for this love.

if it's worth having, it's worth fighting for.

=)

2010-01-22T16:18:00.004+08:00

i already got my specialization course for year 3 and it's
Wafer Fabrication!
oh yeay!

in tears.

2010-01-17T13:59:00.003+08:00

sister told me she met muhammad firdaus at work.
i don't wanna miss him, but i can't lie to myself.
=(

NYP. 711. BB.

2010-01-17T10:44:00.002+08:00

it's been sometime yet again. i am too busy with school and work already. and i haven't mention about my new phone right? so it's BlackBerry curve, which i've been aiming for it all along. my Nokia E71, i dumped it to my sister.

anyway, soon our outlet gonna have another new staff. and all our staff is a malay girl. very niceee!

oh, out of the almost 2 years i've been studying in NYP, for this sem, i've received my first ever warning letter. that's so not nice.

and about my common test, i am proud to announce that i've failed 1 out of 3 modules. -____- i've not been studying well anyway, so it's expected.

and for this coming week, it's gonna be hard. i've got lab test, quiz and presentation from monday till thursday. yes, all in one shot.

i am sorry

2010-01-09T23:02:00.004+08:00

i know it's been hard, and you get so frustrated. looking for a reason or rhyme to how i think. i don't know how to help, so i repeat myself. hoping that the words will come out, different every time.

cause we both feel the pain, we just say it different ways. hear my heart before you hear my lips. because i can't win this game, if i don't know how to play. don't give up. just try and understand, i'm doing the best i can.

love will turn you into things you never thought you'd be, and love will make you look at things you didn't want to see. i know that it feels just like we're drifting out to sea, but love is holding on when all the world is telling you to leave.

BOOOOO!

2010-01-08T23:45:00.001+08:00

please help me tell him to go and die. i hate him very much. thanks and bye.

RIP THE REV

2009-12-30T22:27:00.006+08:00

it's been days again and i feel that time flies faster this time. but before i start my rant, JIMMY "THE REV" SULLIVAN from A7X passed away yesterday so, RIP REV. nevertheless, my abang shadoo is still there for me though. :x

so anyway, work has been fine. colleagues are superb. an outing with HAM was great. and we even attempt taking pictures with hand signs but without smiling. it's hard i tell you. you all should try. and i'd show some attempted and succeeded pictures below.

i had a meet up with imran (after a month i last met him). we pampered ourselves with arcade games which i lose car and motor racing to him and i won him for army shootingshooting game, can you believe that? haha! now that is to convince him that i don't only get marksman but i'm a very gooooood marksman, indeed. haha. so perasan.

then we head for Avatar! well i don't really look forward to watch it cause i'm not interested in action movies but to be frank with you, Avatar doesn't bores me at all. it was really nice, worth watching!

A FAVOUR MAY SEEM SMALL, BUT THEIR GRATITUDE WILL BE HUGE. DON'T PUT IT OFF.

i miss. i miss. you.

2009-12-27T23:26:00.006+08:00

ok i am sure that many of you were excited about the singapore idol's result. AND I AM SOOOO SEZAIRIFIED. =)

anyway, i am back from port dickson(which i learned the word 'dicky' in short from brother - well, yeah, it sounds very wrong). it was an awesome family outing even though sister wasn't there with us for her schedule was packed with work stuff so anyway, i have many beautiful pictures which as usual i will post some here and for more, here you go, multiply!

i know i have not break any news about me getting a job so since i'm gonna start tomorrow, let's do it now.

i am radin shazwani and i got a job at 7eleven from mama's friend's daughter. cool? ok NOT cool. just wish me luck.

SEE WHERE THE CURRENTS TAKE YOU, BUT DON'T LOSE THE SIGHT OF THE SHORE.

WHAT A DAAAAYS!

2009-12-23T21:56:00.003+08:00

so when did i last blog? last friday right? i shall cover saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday and today for today's post.

SATURDAY!

had a family outing to pierce reservoir to see monkeys! believe it or not, i shouted "MAMA! MAMA! MAMA!" like hell when one of the monkeys tryna get my mum and i'm just right behind her. mum get away while dad tryna scare that monkey away and left me with the monkey. so i shouted "AYAH! AYAH! AYAH!" this time and ran to my mum when brother told me another monkey came right behind me.

no serious, it was a total shame. cause there's a couple near us observing me throughout, really. lucky they didn't laugh to my stupidity, if not i'll grab that monkey and throw it to them. cheyy macam paham.

we then head to ION and i saw this very cute policeman while on the way down the escalator (which by logically you know that, that policeman is going upwards) so i whispered to mum "POLICE! POLICE!" then automatically mum call "POLICE" out loud and point towards me.

i have to look away. i gotta look away. i need to look away. and i did. waaaaah! mum really got the nerves. malu i!

then the next day is a sleepy day for me. and i had my hair highlighted. but it's not the colour i want though.

MONDAY!

arfan ask us out again. so i'm out with my poly mates and this time to karaoke. at grandlink of course, where else can we go. we had a superduper screaming session. good thing is nana didn't cry to the song "hati yang kau sakiti". and sad thing is i gotta go off early cause i gotta drive mum to changi general hospital for a visit.

pictures will be uploaded soon after i got them from nana, swear.

TUESDAY!

another day out to changi village with my sec mates! it's really been so long the last time i met them all together. which as usual, i'm the late comer. but afterall, i really had a good time with them all. i've upload the pics on my multiply so check them out!

and today, i'm a good girl and stay home after days of outings. i lost my posb passbook and my charles & keith shades, so i ransacked my whole cupboard but to no avail. and i'm angry. i'm angry cause finding for those really tires me. and when i'm angry, imran's the place where i shoot all my tantrums. i'm sorry.

so i won't be blogging until monday. i'll be away to port dickson. i'm gonna have fun again! yeaaay! so long people!

YOU'RE STUCK BETWEEN TWO FRIENDS. THE ONLY SOLUTION IS TO EXTRICATE YOURSELF.

stress-free

2009-12-19T14:22:00.003+08:00

had an awesome time again with poly mates yesterday. but! i had a bad start. let me share with you, ok?

first, i'm asked to meet them at orchard. orchard means far. far means i gotta take train to the place. and fyi, i don't like train at all. cause train can make me..lost.

so i have a try out alone to orchard by train. just hoping hard i could make it there without asking anyone for directions.

first step is to take 60 from my home to eunos int. easy! next, take the train at the left side once i took the escalator up. so i confirm myself with the map posted at one of the corner and yes, i'm right.

then from what i see from the map, i got to drop at city hall int and change train. (ok fine actually, i know nuts about changing trains. i gotta call arfan whether i should or not. so minus one point for me.)

so by then i reached city hall and confidently walk out of the train, take the escalator down and tadaaaaa!................i'm lost. so i quickly called arfan again to confirm with him if i should take the escalator down. which his answer is a total disappointment to me. cause he said, i should just cross over from the train i alight. i'm so clever, eh? gosssh!

then i get the escalator up again and took the train to orchard. now i'm happy enough to get to orchard by myself so i called them for the exact meet up point. they told me to meet at this place but by the time i'm out of the int, i'm lost yet again.

funny thing is, the way i said 'how? i'm lost. i don't even know where i am.' makes arfan super kanchiong. so i'm asked to wait at where i am and they'll be there.

which by then we walked around from orchard to esplanade. and i'm home by 1 a.m. swear, with them i'm always home late.

below is the direct link to the album for yesterday's photo. it's not officially open to you cause most of the pictures were taken at nana's camera which i haven't get it from her but if you wanna take a peep, here you gooo!

MULTIPLY

YOU ARE TREADING ON DANGEROUS GROUND. YOUR FOUNDATIONS ARE SHAKIER THAN YOU THINK.

HOLIDAY'S IN!

2009-12-18T12:13:00.006+08:00

yeay! say hello to blogging again! been real busy these days. just this week, i had my common test. total of 3 modules and it's all a killer, really. and i don't wish to see my results when the school reopens.

so let's not talk about school cause it's holiday now! and i got a lot of plans with my friends. be it the night riding, the stress-free outing, the karaoke session. but! all these outings need money right? and i'm short of those. i am not working so i'm depending on my parents. imma big girl so i should be independent.

i tried finding jobs for myself but sadly, none of those jobs want me. tell me how?

anyway, i am meeting my poly mates later. they ask me out to town. town is an expensive place. now where should i get those cash? tell me! tell me!

oh oh oh! SELAMAT TAHUN BARU ISLAM!

NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY, YOUR WORDS ARE MISCONSTRUED. BETTER LUCK TOMORROW.

gaaaahh!

2009-12-16T15:53:00.006+08:00

i back out
to join them
for studying
session cause
someone's
coming over so
i gotta be home.

veryshortupdate

2009-12-16T09:03:00.006+08:00

common tests paper has been a killer. i'm down with 2, 1 more to go! and i'll be heading to razman's "hot" spot later for studying session again.

baaaaadgirl

2009-12-05T11:27:00.003+08:00

i am supposed to be in school yesterday, but i skipped. i don't know what's happening to me. i began to slack even more when i know my common test is approaching. i need someone to knock some sense to my dead brain cell.

instead, i went out to get my sandal and laptop case bag with haz. first we met at my home cause she's too early, i tell you. she came right at the time when i just had my bath and i only have a mini towel wrapped around my body. gaaahhh!

ok. let me end this with pictures.

MORE PICTURES!

some happening days

2009-12-04T10:27:00.008+08:00

i know. it's been days. but don't blame me.

even i am finding time for myself. i had too many school works. too many outings. too many meet ups. too many energy used up till i fell sick.

i've been living painfully at 40 degree for 4 whole days. pus grew -again- at my tonsils which it makes me harder to talk.

was away from school for days and i missed two quizzes and a labtest. very soon is common test.

will things get anymore harder?

anyway, i spent wonderful days with my family, poly mates, the girls and not forgetting, imran before the day i fell sick.

Layar Andayu.

Popeyes with poly mates.

Hari Raya AidilAdha.

our cow is veryvery naughty. like the owner.

i have a picture with anterine.

sorry is never enough

2009-11-18T20:56:00.004+08:00

thousands of apologies for the delay of updating my blog. remember my last post about me having a good day out with my poly mates? indeed it is. and it's wonderful to have imran to join us for the occasion later that evening. and of course, above is only few of the pics taken. for more, here.

and i've end my project lesson so i don't have to come early to school on wednesday anymore. about this project, i've made an FM radio transmitter this time. so now i am my own DJ. and i own FM88.6. so people, do tune in if you're near me!

but right now, i just made someone pissed. and i really don't know what to do.

tonight's the night.

2009-11-14T12:29:00.002+08:00

today's saturday and it's gonna be a gooooooood day. i'm sure it'll be. so hang on tight for my upcoming post!

i got a feeling

2009-11-10T18:56:00.004+08:00

My Girlfriend is an Agent is nice. as expected, korean movies are all nice. i've once been a korean freak, and Lee Dong Wook was one of my favourite man. he's still standing strong in my heart till now. cheyyy! and not to worry abg Shadooo, i've not forgotten you. i've even put up your face to my laptop background eversince that day tau. double cheyyy!

me and my fairytale. BOOOOO me! *thumbsdown*

schooling with mates around has always been fun. those mates are one of the reasons as to why i'm dragging myself to school lately. study? i've not been focusing well to lectures. let alone tutorials. i only do good for practicals.

and the proudest thing i've ever made for myself this sem is, i haven't been absenting myself till now-which it's already been the forth week. heeeee! it's one of my greatest achievement so far.

and remembering t-o-m-o-r-r-o-w makes me smile. i've said it once and i'm saying it again, he's one of my best.

and i don't know whatelse to say. i'm just.......happy. =)

that's how it feels.

2009-11-02T19:45:00.007+08:00

LOVE.
see me smile for love, again.

so much about birthday celebrations

2009-11-01T19:59:00.007+08:00

now i've been away for a week. many things happened in between. be it good or bad, happy or sad. as described, i've been busy lately. with every single thing. time is precious you know. so i am using every seconds from it wisely. chey look who's talking!

those pictures clearly shows what's going on there. so that was Hafiz birthday. that bigbig man. that irritating man. that R karat man. that super old man. hahaha!

while that was taken at AMK McDonalds with these 3 lovely girls! now i am hungry thinking about those fillet-o-fish and fries i ate with sparkling cola, they just taste good. and i'm drooling right now. gaaaahhhh!

and just last Wednesday, i celebrated Ahmad's birthday in school then Ismail's birthday outside school, at Changi Airport. now i'm drooling again thinking of those chickens and mash potatoes and bisuits....gosh! i am super hungry right this minute.

nope, that's not the end.

so i end my weekdays with Nana, Ida, Razman and Arfan! we spent the whole night out. i mean it, the WHOLE night out.

we five went to my home after school to get my car then off we went to ECP Hawker Center to fill our stomach. afterwhich our initial plan was to bowl so we head off to the bowling place but! the place was full.

so we ditched our bowl plan then we head to grandlink for karaoke session. Ida's voice was super great. Arfan keeps saying, "aaaaah..aaaaaah.." while listening to her voice. Macam steam gitu! HAHA!

then we head to Marina Barrage and had our awesome time laughing at each others joke especially Razman. he's so clown. and after that we dragged ourself down to Arab Street for supper!

and then home. believe it or not, i reach home at 5:30am.

afterall, it was an awesome day and night out with these lovely people. i like! let's have an outing like that again people!

now that's for working with stupidbrain

2009-10-25T21:24:00.006+08:00

after giving it a brutal thought, i finally decide to stay and continue with it. i am not good at deciding but i hope this is right. i don't wish to see any party getting hurt because of me. but by trying doesn't kills right?

anyway, i know you readers don't understand my story. one minute i am down, the next minute i am back to me again. it's a difficult situation whereby i don't understand myself either.

anyway, it's over.

and to you, thank you for not leaving when i begged you to leave.

it's sunday and i'm schooling again tomorrow. and the day after. and the.............anyway, school has been draggy during lectures and tutorials and practicals but not during break or after school of course. i don't know. sometimes when i am determine to study, i find myself talking and laughing with my mates. how?

and it's only been a week in school and i have 3 equizzes to cover by 2359 tonight. but not to worry, i've done it all. hehe!

oh have i mentioned the movie titled Darah?

yeahh, catched it with Imran last Wednesday. sucha violent scene. very bloody. bodies chopped into pieces. stupid Darah's angry look scares the shit out of me. started to panic where all the lights went off in one of those scenes. and i just feel like puking the minute they..........ewww! i should not continue.

so that's for Imran's special day.

which to me is nothing special.

i'm sucha jerk at handling special days, alone. cause we only meet up at YCK int, took 72 to tamp, took 21 to EHub, get the tix to Darah movie, ate at KFC, then tadaaaaa! home. -_-

but he said he's totally happy spending his day with me. awwwww! now that's the word i preety expect it from him - happy!

hehe!

and last Friday i get to spent my time after school with Nana, Nabilah and Ummai! we're four together again, just like the old times sitting at south canteen with our foods during our break time. okay i am exagerating.

but seriously, our break time now is total different. that's not nice.

i am one ungrateful bitch

2009-10-22T22:46:00.003+08:00

last night, i am too happy to have let myself turned in early without worrying of anything.

tonight, my eyes are still wide open, swollen.

i don't know what i've just said and done. i can't think well, let alone leaving my dead brain cells to have made such decision. i feel like every single thing is pressuring me.

it's my own life i am dragging others to deal with. i hurt someone so terribly. i am really an ungrateful one. i am stupid. veryvery stupid.

to you, if you're here, i am wholly sorry for saying harsh words without even thinking of your feelings. if you're willing to deal anything with her just for me, oh please be my vip.

ohh, you took my love.

2009-10-20T21:38:00.008+08:00

that is my little cousin. she only wants to take picture with me. read that again, only with me! sister gets mad at me for that. haha!

so anyway, i've abandoned my blog yet again. i've been total busy. with outings, schools, meet ups and all. and so to make up for that, i shall just update in short on what i've been doing lately. of course i won't update every single thing cause i am short minded. i forget things easily.

had a meet up with muskiest last Friday to EXPO to check out on things that we may find it worth to buy. eventually, nothing. then to our all time favourite, Food Culture, for our dinner.

Nabilah and me get ourselves a new bag for schoooooool last Saturday! having a new bag adds 20% to our "eagerness" of going back to school eh Nabilah? and oh, Nabilah gets to meet Imran, Imran gets to meet Nabilah.

Johor with family on Sunday was niceeee! cause i get to shop for more things. whatelse. i'm a shopaholic, indeed. i don't only influence people like Nabilah to buy things ok, it's hard for me to even control my 'wants'.

Monday, schoooooooool! this time i've been greeted with 'Radin! You got license already ahhh? CONGRATS!' haha. macammacam lah kawankawan aku ni. baik cina mahupun melayu. my mates must have spread those words. i don't intend to let everyone know though. it's just a car license what right? no big deal.

met Imran after that and we caught Imagine That. and i started to not feel well. am having flu till now. school sick lah!

and as for today, i forced myself to school. i don't mind cause it's only for few hours. from 8 to 1. of course every lecturer release us early so we had more breaks.

so tomorrow is 21st of October and it's Imran's birthday. in case i didn't get to update tomorrow, i shall end my post today by wishing him in advance here.

HAPPY 20th BIRHDAY IMRAN! DAH TUAAAA KEREPOOOT! YEAY!

he's that sweetheart

2009-10-14T18:34:00.003+08:00

that four letter word leads me asking him about his past. about why he can simply move on while i can't. maybe i can and am moving on but something just stop me from doing so. it's like half of me wants me to be the best of me. while another half of me just wants me to stay guilty and keep dwelling about my past relationship.

we had our piece. each of our own.

i told him i've tried and am still trying. i guess he's right. i'm in a confusion state. i even told him i don't deserve to be loved. i'm such a pain, a heartbreaker, a sad story. and all he asked for is to forget my past and to turn over a new leaf. and he's willing to help me for a brighter future.

now i don't feel stupid. i gotta make my mark. and this time i'm gonna run it hard.

sucha superhuman

2009-10-12T12:50:00.001+08:00

thousands of apologies for being away for days yet again. my very last post is about me bragging about that book right? so i am done with it. it was nice in the end. as always, these books have got nice ending. and i want more. so i've got a few more books to read from Haz. and this is how i live my last few days before shool reopens soon.

7/10/2009 9:36:36 PM Radin Shazwani : haaz oi!
7/10/2009 9:36:40 PM Radin Shazwani : bila nak jumpe?
7/10/2009 9:38:55 PM ~LINDA~ : haahahaha
7/10/2009 9:39:00 PM ~LINDA~ : kau uh tk ajak kluar!
7/10/2009 9:39:03 PM ~LINDA~ : hehehehe
7/10/2009 9:39:08 PM ~LINDA~ : besok nk??

then the next next next next minute...

7/10/2009 10:05:49 PM ~LINDA~ : see ya!
7/10/2009 10:07:54 PM Radin Shazwani : yeayyy!

so that conversation leads us having a meet up the next day. there were Haz, Nabilah and Syaf. it was very nice driving around with the forever-fighting girls in the car. i'm in there like one crazy girl who kept asking them "straight?", "left?", "right?" for directions. haha! except for the part which makes me go soooo mad; that Mazda red car. ahh! no use bragging about it. makan cheese lagi sedap. ok no link.

anyway, i was out with Imran again last Saturday to catch Phobia2. nyahaha! not scary at all. and he can even sleep in there. gaahh! but afterall, evening with him was nice. =)

it's 12th of October now so today is my sister's birthday.

RADIN SHAZIELA! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! please be a good girl(like me). HAHAHA!

so we celebrated her birthday in advance earlier yesterday. we all forked out some cash just to buy her that DSLR Finepix camera she's been bugging us for. now she's got it, senyaaaaap sikit.

ok now why am i so stupid? no wonder i can't click on 'upload' when i have not chose any photos on multiply. stupidstupidstupid! and i still got the guts to complain how sickening multiply is towards me to Imran.

now i've got new pictures. i've upload some. i'll upload more much soon. check out for my next post ok! and btw, sorry to have kept you all waiting on who's i'm gonna keep in touch with. i'm revealing it now. here. right this second.

it's.

i mean, he is.

Imran! the guy that i knew from my friend. hehe.

oh dear boooooook.

2009-10-06T16:39:00.002+08:00

CORRECTION! pardon me for my previous post about Sophie Kinsella's book. i told you it has 29 chapters in total am i right? ok, i am wrong. it has 26 chapters altogether. and i'm at chapter 26 now. so much of me not wanting to end the story so soon.

but it's too addictive! i tried having it out of my sight but the next minute i found myself holding that book, flipping through pages the last i read.

just a few hours ago i stop myself right at the first page of chapter 26. and let my sister bring it out with her. my idea is nice isn't it? so that i could drag the story longer and keep thinking about what's gonna happen next.

but!

i need that book right this minute. i can't afford to stress myself to think about what's gonna happen next. gaahh!

but whatever it is, i can stay cool. i still have my laptop with me to brag about that book. rightrightright? even right till now i kept ranting about that book. haha. thousand apologies if i irritate all of you about that book but it's too nice for me to missed that one out.

by the way, i've been making a lot of money today. my job is total easy. just stay at home, entertain my mum's friend who came to visit for hari raya, then shake hand with them and pop!, there's my green packet. easy isn't it?

so those who's still schooling, be like me. stay home and make easy money! hahaha! ok i was joking.

so anyway, nabilah called earlier to know who i chose to stay in contact with(which i mentioned in my previous post). so i told her. afterall, she's always been the first to know everything about me. so be proud nabilah! and lucky i don't have tagboard. if not, it'll get flooded with her tags. haha!

so....the rest of you, you wanna know who?

alright let's be patient and wait for some more days ok. heehee!

i am that madcrazyugly girl.

2009-10-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

i know, i've changed my layout again after months. that's what you get if i've got nothing else to do. i wanted to watch some dvds initially, or even finish up a book on Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella but too sayang to know the ending of the story so quickly. it has got 29 chapters in total and i'm already at chapter 23. i really don't wanna end it so soon.

so i used up my time with my laptop!

i've done scanning through pictures of "me and my BGs" and "me and my poly mates" the day we went out for HR outing on facebook. and it left me saying, "what a superb day!" hehe! then i went to my blog and it bores me out of a sudden, so that's why i decided to change my layout. it doesn't make much of a difference but at least, the background's colour changed, the phrase at the top changed, and.....that's it.

then i tried checking out my school timetable to see if it's available yet. but it's not so, let's check on some other thing.

get online on msn, nope. too lazy.

whatelse?

ok, i have a story. i've been keeping this to myself for quite awhile so it doesn't kills me if i'd like to share right? furthermore, this is a healthy way to make myself to move on.

alright, let's start.

i have this guy, a student who study in the same poly as me, admires me(i get to know that from my friend). and i have this guy, a friend of my friend, whom i just get to know weeks ago, cares and concern about my everyday well beings.

so if you were me, who'd you like to stay in touch with?

i've made my decision and i hope that it's right so if you wanna know who's that unlucky guy this madcrazyugly girl choose? check out my upcoming post, ok? haha.

superhuman.

2009-10-05T13:17:00.007+08:00

pardon me for not giving a proper update. i've been busy throughout until now then i have time for myself to surf the net for as long as i want.

so i've been going out almost every day whether for hari raya outings or even some usual outings. everyday was just like some other normal days until yesterday, i was touched with ayah's words while talking to his uncle. (well, of course i was eavesdropping, what else. )

so he said, "dalam banyak-banyak, yang ini(pointing towards me) yang paling cepat. qatam Qur'an dulu. dari segi pelajaran pun dia dulu. semuanya dia yang terdahulu."

that's the first and the only time i get to hear him praising something good about me towards his uncle. FIRST! i'm preety sure he's proud of me. and it kept me thinking. he's proud of me. so he's putting hopes on me. so he don't want to see me failing myself. so i need to buck up. and i need to be a real good girl. i need to be one. i have to be one. for my dearly loved parents.

i've got pictures and i'll post one for you below which as usual, to see more, get it from my multiply please! multiply is very convenient. it doesn't took minutes to load, just click on next and next and next for next pictures instead of tiring your fingers, scrolling and keep scrolling down. please thank me for making your life easy. hehe!

ok i've had much ranting so here you gooo, a picture of HR outing with BGs!

pls proceed for my multiply

2009-10-01T01:34:00.006+08:00

MUSKIEST OUTING WAS FUN! FUNFUNFUN!

HARI RAYA WITH MY POLY MATES WAS FUN TOO!

oh pls, proceed to my MULTIPLY to see more lovely and fun pictures.

HARI RAYA AGAIN!

2009-09-27T23:09:00.006+08:00

I AM BACK AGAIN WITH MORE PICTURES!

oh please do visit my multiply for morrrrreee pictures!

dreamworld

2009-09-25T23:40:00.006+08:00

i love today. i love today. i love today! cause i get to buy my ever favourite author, Sophie Kinsella, with her new released book titled Twenties Girl! yeah, never once i missed reading her books just like how i did to harry potter movies. i'd regret if it were to happen.

anyway, i filled my make up kit with more new things. one of my latest favourite is gel eyeliner from maybelline. veryveryvery easy and nice to use, to me. i like i like! heeeh!

and the other night, i embarrassed myself again. i know i couldn't sleep with my phone next to me. and if my phone were to ring, i'd answer any incoming calls or sms in whatever embarrassing way i can. just that night while i was sleeping, i received sms from Imran which i replied something like, "Awaaaaal nye mylea.........". yeah, that bad. i myself couldn't even understand what am i tryna say. oh yes, i even wish him 'selamat hari raya' when actually it's been days after first day of hari raya. really, please do laugh at my clumsiness. what am i dreaming mann?

and it reminds me of some day, few years back. i was sleeping while sms-ing. lucky the first person in my phone book list was ayah so i started sms-ing him 'tkde'. ayah replied me, 'tkde ape?' so i replied him, 'ayam'. nice? i must have dreamt about chicken the other day. too hungry to sleep. haha! dammnn me.

well, that's just sms. calls? worst i tell you. Imran is already one of my victim.

anyway, here's some pictures of Irwan's friend came over to do some hari raya visiting.

Thank you Dear Allah!

2009-09-23T15:16:00.003+08:00

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh! i totally missed out something very interesting for my previous post. that is, i passed all my modules for this semester! ALHAMDULILLAH! yeayeayeayeayeayeay! mari kawankawan, kite enjoy sebelum sekolah buka semula!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

2009-09-23T10:28:00.010+08:00

i know it's been days but today is still hari raya so SELAMAT HARI RAYA my friends! pleasepleaseplease forgive me for all my wrongdoings ok? and to whom i didn't get to reply your sms-es, thousand apologies and please understand my situation. heh!

so anyway, like every year, we spent our first day of hari raya to our grandparents home. this year is much nicer as my mama's birthday happens to fall on the first day of hari raya, so mama-ku yang tersayang, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

second day!

now these 3 cuties with their parents came over to our house the very next day. geramgeramgeram dgn kina! akeeem pun!

then i went out to get mama's birthday present from atiqah's body shop with imran. atiqah! soonsoon la please. and as usual, if you wish to see more pictures, here you go, MULTIPLY!

wasn't as nice.

2009-09-15T14:20:00.003+08:00

had another iftar session. just that now i had it with the BGs. i know. i've always been the one who can't make it most of the time whenever these people asked me out. finally i make myself free yesterday. so we celebrated fyQah's day in advance too.

and let me post some random pictures i had with this lovely people.

iftar at nana's

2009-09-14T11:48:00.010+08:00

pardon me for not updating. too busy to update. and furthermore, i am waiting for pictures from Hafiz.

anyway, yesterday was Faizal's day so happy hari tuaaa Faizal!

we celebrated Faizal's day in advance at Nana's home. Nana invite us all for iftar. it was veryvery nice! andand, i met new friend.

so it was very chaotic from the start till the end. and i lovelovelove it much! so here's some pictures i get from Hafiz. i bet there's more. so i'll post some here and when i get the rest of the pictures, i'll post it up to my multiply much soon.

next up, HARI RAYA ok kawankawan?!

let's break the news!

2009-09-12T00:01:00.004+08:00

so 11th of September was that beautiful day. thank you dear Allah for helping me through. not forgetting my ever dearest family too.

because of them, i've passed my TP. yes, T-P. driving license! hee. not many knew about me getting a driving license for myself.

ok. i first enroled during one of the days in March this year. i manage to pass BTT, FTT and TP all at first attempt. so after six months, now i've obtain myself a driving license.

and uhh, ayah get a car for us few months back since he fully paid his van. so now he drive his van, me and sister drive the car! hehe. oh, sister too just passed her TP last month.

so tell me, isn't this beautiful?

whatlaa.

2009-09-10T13:42:00.004+08:00

i am one happy girl already.
i'm your friend. you're my friend. please don't put hopes on me. i don't wish for another and i mean it. kita friendfriend aje, pls. terima kasih!

I don't mean to, just wanna have some fun.

hammies

2009-09-06T00:13:00.007+08:00

so another iftar cum outing with my hammies but without rabbit which we'll make it up another day for her. anyway, we had fun laughing our asses off. seriously, with them you can't stop laughing. that i can swear.

so we had sakura for breaking fast then off to ion for our very first time. you know my directions were'nt that good. which the same applies to this other two girls. but at least we get to our destination perfectly riiiigggghhhhht on time.

and uh, atiqah helped me do my eyebrow. now it's nice! thank you 'slipper'! and to you too idayu, thank you for the day! plsplspls! next outing we go bowling ok? ah yee. org nak beraya, ni nak main bowling.

KAWANKAWAN

2009-09-03T01:35:00.009+08:00

so second september was our last paper afterwhich we, the kawan-kawan poly, spent our whole day together enjoying ourselves. we pool-ed, we break fast-ed, we karaoke-d and definitely we all had an awesome day together. seriously, i laughed a lot with them.

Pictures paint a thousand stories so go to my MULTIPLY!

but i think it's better to paste some photos here. won't trouble you people. but for full album, just go to my multiply ok!

Much misses.

2009-08-31T20:31:00.003+08:00

so here i am again. it's been the tenth of Ramadhan already. see how time flies. and so many things had happened these days. therefore that's the reason as to why i've not been constantly updating this.

anyway, i had three out of four examinations already and i'm soooo dead. this time the examinations was such a murderer. many have been complaining to me about how they attempt badly in their exams then, whats more me? so now i am left with my last exam which will held on wednesday.

other then examinations, i've been constantly going out. to study and more to have fun. ok. i am finding trouble for myself.

today's uncle birthday. i've not even wish him until this hour. what a bad niece, i am. which that reminds me of my late grandmother and grandfather. sometimes i could feel their presence.

NENEKKKK.. TOKKKK.. ONY RINDU!

Black Knights

2009-08-21T00:12:00.005+08:00

after a full three days straight to school for studying session with my friends, i finally take a day off today. the reason why i'm being a hardworking girl to go to school to study is because, i've tried studying at home myself but you know, i end myself up scribbling things like 'NOLAN!' or even katy perry's song lyrics to my pieces of past year exam revision paper.

so that's why. i'm a jerk at studying by myself. i need at least someone to sit beside me and scold me to study. hee!

i had a meet up with black knights once again in the evening. aizat and bhai tagged us along. we dinner-ed at rasa 21 so i chose to have their wanton noodle. and i don't wanna say it's not nice but.....i don't like it. hee! i'm just being nice not to criticize it. maybe it really doesn't suite my taste or maybe i've ate a lot from home before i met them. so, i'm really not saying that it's not nice.

and by then, we have our crappy moments together again.

CLICK FOR PICTURES! =)

and to think about it again, i shouldn't have bragged about i-don't-wanna-be-one-of-the-boys. infact, i should thank Allah for having them to cheer my every days. not all girls got the opportunity like me.

as heard from my girl friends, most of them prefer befriend-ing with group of boys just because they thought that boys are fun to hang out with. which i really thought so too now. hee!

karaoke again!

2009-08-17T00:20:00.005+08:00

it's 12:20am which clearly means that now is already monday. so i've spent my weekends very well again. saturday with muskiest plus Haz and fyQah's sister for some time. and as for sunday, i spent quality times with siblings since our parents went 'honeymoon-ing' to Johor.

well, i had marvelous time with muskiest the whole of last saturday. we karaoke-d for five hours and nope, we didn't lose our voice. it was fun when you know, it's an 'all girls' outing so we're more then crazy singing out loud, dancing to the beat and be ourselves.

look out for pictures on my multiply account! oh oh! i got a youtube account too now. well, up till now, i only got videos of me and bestfriends melalak-ing at karaoke. haha. but eh, i'm not showcasing our 'great talent' on singing but to share with you how we spent our lovely fun times together. please don't leave those videos bad comments if you happen to drop by my youtube account ok?

alright. as for my sunday, me and my siblings spent time on what? karaoke please! seriously ok, it's our new hobby now even though i know our voices are not great. this time we went to our all time favourite, bedok central cash studio! =D

and i sang bila rindu again which it reminds me of Muhammad Firdaus cause the last time i went karaoke-ing with him is when we duet to that song. which i know my voice sucks real bad that time. hehe! i am uploading some videos, and i'll definitely upload the bila rindu song i sang with Irwan.

macam pondan. hahahaha!

2009-08-13T17:03:00.007+08:00

i must have been crazy. i haven't even touch on what-to-study for tomorrow's common test and yet i have time to blog eh. seriously, i am not in a mood for study session right this minute.

a very well time spent with Atiqah after school yesterday. i hitched on Atiqah's ride all the way from Bedok to ECP and back to Bedok. we karaoke-ed till dawn. then ate till we're full. was totally awesome. macam pondan! haha.

so we took more videos then pictures. i only manage to snap 3 pictures using my phone camera cause i didn't bring my camera along as the battery was total flat.

my turn next please. Allah please grant my wish!

free time

2009-08-11T11:07:00.008+08:00

okay. my main intention to use this laptop is to work on my piling e-quizzes i have not done since the very start of term two. well okay. actually i've not been focusing well for lectures, tutorials and even practicals since then.

see la! even now i use my time to blog. okay actually i've attempted 3 out of 20 questions for 1 of the 3 quizzes i'm supposed to do and then when i click on 'submit' for the 3rd question, the page leads me to the login page. tell me how can i not rebel and do something else like what i am doing right this second?

it's making me like having this "semangat satu minit" je tau!

anyway, i have lessons from 3pm to 6pm later. and i don't feel like going. but too bad, i got to. cause i've been skipping this lesson a lot and i've missed so many things and i've no idea how the hell i'm gonna catch things up.

so Munzir left me a comment on facebook asking when will our common test be held. then i was like oh shit i got common test! and browse through my SMS from Ahmad who keep me updated about test date and so on. so i replied Munzir "14th(fri) at 4:30pm" then checked my calender and it shocked me so bad cause it's this freaking friday. so i add in more words telling him i don't know what to study and all.

my regrets for attending that lesson for only 3 times. i started the fire, i got to extinguish it myself.

but on a brighter note, i can't wait for tomorrow! yeeeeehhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

hello new life!

2009-08-10T21:36:00.003+08:00

and so i've moved again after years i've been using evenifit-killsme.bs

"even if it kills me" sounds the strength i have in me to overcome every circumstances in life. so i decided to change to radinshazwani.bs cause i know i don't have the strength and i just wanna be exactly what i am now.

a girl who can mix with anyone and everything, with no superpowers to destroy what i dislike, but only with a heart and desire to live and love what's coming in near future.

and uhh, i also wanna blend well with the boys i've always been with for the past few months but without complaining to other people how i feel like i am so one of the boys. it's difficult cause when i'm with those boys, i seriously feel like i'm one of them. i've been laughing/burping out loud. eeew! and yes, i ate a lot. and those boys don't. frustrating right?

i just wanna be a simple, plain good girl. hee!

anyway, i don't link people and i don't put up tagboard. i make this blog sound like it's private but nope, it's not. everyone is free to know and share how i live my life today, tomorrow and thereafter.

i have a multiply account to share pictures. basically means that i won't be troubling myself pasting countless pictures here like how i did to my old blog. so i'll just keep you updated with words like "check out my multiply for pictures!" followed by the links to my multiply account. that's if i got pictures to share la! simple?

please be kind and say yes.

so click this to my multiply account. i have pictures the time i spent with bestfriends karaoke-ing on last saturday and just yesterday, we went to Noriz's brother wedding.

anyway, i'm a busy girl. i'll try and keep this updated whenever i'm free.